Lately I have no idea how to express my feelings and thought that is in my mind, therefore I have been using songs to express myself. This song “我以为” by 品冠 is the most perfect song right now to express everything inside me - what I think and how I feel.
"你说不想有天让我知道
你对他 有那么好
你说会懂 我的失落
不是靠宽容 就能够解脱"
I remembered he once told me: "I don't know how to tell you this and I don't know how to explain it to you. It's very complicated and I don't really want you to know, because it's gonna hurt you." I don't exactly understand what is he trying to tell me but I said to him: "I think I understand what you're going through but I couldn't tolerate everything, tolerance can't solve everything that have just happened."
"我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他 正说要分开
我以为你 已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害"
Few months back in the past: I knew that he broke up with her and I thought he has no intend to go back to her.
"我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力
填满你感情的缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生"
For once I thought that I have gave him my best and tried my best to give him happiness but I think I'm too naive to hope that he will be treating me back as how I have treated him.
"我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心 已不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为"
After all the time that we spend together, I thought he understand all the things that I have done for him. Unfortunately, I am just wasting all my time, it was just only my thought, and it's still only my own thought.
"他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁的身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天的失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望"
After a long time, I started to realised that he has already made his choice at the very beginning, that is why no matter how bad she treated him, he continue to forgive her. After all this drama, I thought that I can be very strong but I got more and more disappointed everyday because he has given me lots of hope. Now, how I wish that we never meet before and there shall be no hope at all.
