- 我以为 -

Lately I have no idea how to express my feelings and thought that is in my mind, therefore I have been using songs to express myself. This song “我以为” by 品冠 is the most perfect song right now to express everything inside me - what I think and how I feel.

"你说不想有天让我知道
你对他 有那么好
你说会懂 我的失落
不是靠宽容 就能够解脱"

I remembered he once told me: "I don't know how to tell you this and I don't know how to explain it to you. It's very complicated and I don't really want you to know, because it's gonna hurt you." I don't exactly understand what is he trying to tell me but I said to him: "I think I understand what you're going through but I couldn't tolerate everything, tolerance can't solve everything that have just happened."

"我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他 正说要分开
我以为你 已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害"

Few months back in the past: I knew that he broke up with her and I thought he has no intend to go back to her.

"我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力
填满你感情的缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生"

For once I thought that I have gave him my best and tried my best to give him happiness but I think I'm too naive to hope that he will be treating me back as how I have treated him.

"我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心 已不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为"

After all the time that we spend together, I thought he understand all the things that I have done for him. Unfortunately, I am just wasting all my time, it was just only my thought, and it's still only my own thought.

"他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁的身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天的失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望"

After a long time, I started to realised that he has already made his choice at the very beginning, that is why no matter how bad she treated him, he continue to forgive her. After all this drama, I thought that I can be very strong but I got more and more disappointed everyday because he has given me lots of hope. Now, how I wish that we never meet before and there shall be no hope at all.

- 错的人-

明知道爱情并不牢靠 但是我还是拼命往里逃
明知道再走可能是监牢 但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃

在爱里连真心都不能給 这才真正的可笑

爱得太真 太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕

我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道这不是缘分 但是我还奋不顾身

可能 在爱裡面这样算笨
可能 永远沒有所谓永恒
但是我 不願放棄這裡面一點點可能 寧願笨也不想要悔恨

Knowing that loving the wrong person is already a torture but grabbing onto every tiny bit of chances that you can get is even worst. When loving a person too much, you always willing to sacrifice, do whatever it takes without thinking about the consequences. Even though knowing that it's a stupid thing to do, yet doesn't care much and continue to love - still being in denial.

- I Want You to Know -

I miss the days when we text each other everyday,
I miss the days we talked each night.

I miss the days you come to me when you're down,
I miss the days you give me hugs and comfort me when I'm sad,
and I miss the days when you keep me company when I'm alone.

I miss the days when you lay next to me,
I miss the days when we make out.

I miss the days we argue over some stupid things,
I miss the days when we said sorry to each other after.

I miss everything that we did together,
I miss the time that we spend together.

Now that you're gone and belong to someone else,
the thing that I miss the most is when you're still single and
always be there for me when I needed you.