- Feelings -

What's feeling?

Happy...
Sad...
Love...

Those are just part of the feelings...

Actually there are more feelings that are hard to describe...

This few days...

I have some weird feelings inside me...
But I don't know what is that...

I don't know how to described it...

Can't even explaint it or say it out...

It's kind a complicated...

A kind of feelings that is like something missing...

But I don't know what is missing...

A kind of feelings that I am missing someone...

But I don't know who's that some one...

A kind of feeling that called lonely...
But I am surrounded by poeple everyday...

A kind of feelings that is like empty inside me...

But I dont know why I'm feeling empty...

A kind of feelings that my heart is sore and broken...

I am surrounded by happy moments everyday....

What make me feel all this?

I was wondering...

Every morning...

I weke up...

I put myself to work to make myself busy...

So that I can forget all the complicated feelings...

When comes to night time...

As soon as I go back to my little room...

My feelings will come back naturally...

When comes to bed time...

I don't dare to sleep even I am so sleepy and tired...

I don't dare to close my eyes...

Because as soon as I closed my eyes...

I feel something...

Something that I don't feels good about it...

I don't know how long these feelings has stay inside me...

It's really so annoying and irritating...

I really hate these kind of feelings...

It takes away all my spark...

Putting me in a dark situation...

I hate staying in the dark...

I want light...

I need light to lead me to the exit of this feelings...

I have been trying to work hard to escape from these feelings...

I tried to listen music...

I tried to relax myself...

I tried to make myself busy...

I even tried to talk to someone...

But everytime when I thought that those feelings has gone...

The feelings will re-appear itself...

I really don't know how to explaint about it...

Even myself is confused about the feelings...

I really run out of ideas how to describe it...

Can someone tell me what kind of feeling is that?

Is there any single word that can descride all of it...

I am really tired of these kind of feelings already...

Can someone please tell me what is that...

What kind of feelings I am having right now...